“My mission...is to find peace with exactly who and what I am. To take pride in my thoughts, my appearance, my talents, my flaws…”

—Anais Nin

Born into a creative family, art and movement was always present for me. After a 20 year professional dance career–including 9 years as a Rockette at Radio City Music Hall—I recognized the power of nature, meditation, sound, and creativity as additional means of deep healing, love, and acceptance. This led to a shift in focus to healing arts and the health/wellness industry.

I’m now an intuitive empowerment coach, teach yoga, lead guided sound meditations, and facilitate workshops. With an emphasis on breath, movement, loving-kindness, alignment, and acceptance, my intention is to help others use their own Divine guidance and embodied creativity to encompass student, teacher, and healer in one.

Youth

The name “Amanda” means “one that is loved” and it has been a long journey returning to being the one who loves the one that is loved …if you know what I mean.

Self love came easily to my childhood self, the me who knew I was intelligent and talented, happy to celebrate everyone’s unique differences—including mine. I followed what excited my heart and enjoyed learning, reading, speaking to adults, sharing my knowledge, exploring all things creative like writing stories and poetry, designing costumes or home interiors, drawing and painting, crafts.

But navigating young life and relationships unaware of being a highly sensitive empathic introvert and the impact of growing up in a dysfunctional household soon shifted me from happy and vibrant to silent and melancholic.

For years, I thought there was something wrong with me.

I didn’t feel like I fit in and changed friend groups and dance studios often so I continued to pour myself into academia and dancing—committed to being a high achiever (read: perfectionist).

This bode me well, as I was always top of my class in school, held office in many honor societies, and saw success in my dance career as young as 11 years old performing with Debbie Allen at the Kennedy Center in Washington, DC, and then across the US + world in Spain, Italy, Austria, and Russia, all the way to nine years performing as a Rockette at Radio City Music Hall in New York City.

Dark Night of the Soul

As these aspects remained unaddressed, perfectionism turned into control and obsession over food, my weight, and body with the development of body dysmorphia and disordered eating/exercise habits. I found myself blindly replicating my own version of abusive/dysfunctional relationships and falling more and more into credit card debt trying to soothe the sadness that ensued. Anxiety turned into panic attacks and depression turned into suicide ideation.

But I knew that despite living my dream performing in NYC as a Rockette at Radio City Music Hall and traveling the world, this wasn’t really “me”.

I realized I was the common denominator to all of my experiences—good and bad.

So I went down the rabbit hole of healing and began to explore who I was, what I liked/wanted/needed, and ultimately what made me, me, in my truest form. I began to heal.

I learned about the play of masculine and feminine energies within ourselves and relationships, my personality type (INFJonly 1.5% of the population!), being an introvert, what a Highly Sensitive Person or HSP is (only 15-20% of the population!), what an empath is, began seeing a therapist and sought help from mystics and healers, received acupuncture, reiki, and chakra balancing to help clear and harmonize my energy field, took my yoga practice deeper, began a regular meditation practice, had my Akashic records read, my astrological natal chart read…numerous times (Double Taurus, Leo Rising), my Human Design chart read (3/5 Self-Projected Projectoronly 2.58% of the population!), learned about attachment styles (Anxious), learned about numerology (Life Path 1), learned about the trauma response, boundaries, and ancestral healing, experienced wisdom from plant medicines, dove into the law of attraction and conscious manifestation work…

As these aspects remained unaddressed, perfectionism turned into control and obsession over food, my weight, and body with the development of body dysmorphia and disordered eating/exercise habits. I found myself blindly replicating my own version of abusive/dysfunctional relationships and falling more and more into credit card debt trying to soothe the sadness that ensued. Anxiety turned into panic attacks and depression turned into suicide ideation.

But I knew that despite living my dream performing in NYC as a Rockette at Radio City Music Hall and traveling the world, this wasn’t really “me”.

I realized I was the common denominator to all of my experiences—good and bad.

So I went down the rabbit hole of healing and began to explore who I was, what I liked/wanted/needed, and ultimately what made me, me, in my truest form. I began to heal.

I learned about the play of masculine and feminine energies within ourselves and relationships, my personality type (INFJonly 1.5% of the population!), being an introvert, what a Highly Sensitive Person or HSP is (only 15-20% of the population!), what an empath is, began seeing a therapist and sought help from mystics and healers, received acupuncture, reiki, and chakra balancing to help clear and harmonize my energy field, took my yoga practice deeper, began a regular meditation practice, had my Akashic records read, my astrological natal chart read…numerous times (Double Taurus, Leo Rising), my Human Design chart read (3/5 Self-Projected Projectoronly 2.58% of the population!), learned about attachment styles (Anxious), learned about numerology (Life Path 1), learned about the trauma response, boundaries, and ancestral healing, experienced wisdom from plant medicines, dove into the law of attraction and conscious manifestation work…

Transformation

Transfor-mation

With this exploration of self and a desire for health and longevity of body, mind, and spirit, my dance career slowly evolved into also studying to be a personal trainer, studying to be a holistic health coach, receiving two reiki attunements to become a practitioner, 300+ hours of yoga teacher training, and solo-travel time spent in India and Bali on what my therapist deemed my own “Pray, Love” trip.

All of this searching brought me back to where it all started: me.

Sometimes we need rock bottom and a long pilgrimage to realize we’ve always had what we’ve been searching for, but sometimes we don’t. As more and more come online to this ascension process, it’s speeding up and becoming less of an aggressive, slow, pain-staking crawl through the mud. There are more people sharing their experiences and compassion and more tools to help ease the inevitable.

What I learned gave me a blueprint for how I show up in and relate to this world, others, and myself. It reaffirmed my childhood confidence in my uniqueness, that I AM VERY DIFFERENT, and that’s okay. It reconnected me to the home and knowledge within. I found my voice, felt empowered, and also like I had a duty to share and guide others on this journey. Overcoming the challenges our differences have created in our lives is one of our greatest teachers and gifts.

Mission & Purpose

My mission is to use personal experiences of self discovery, expression, and love to help others reawaken their light and reignite the fire within; a process which brings us back to our true, balanced, loving, and divine nature where we are all students, teachers, and healers making empowered choices and taking inspired action in the direction of heart-centered purpose.

My goal is to inject love into everything I do to help light this planet up. Moving through life with the intention of love heals bodies and relationships, allows plants and people to grow and bloom. The impossible becomes possible; magic unfolds around you.

My heart-centered purpose is to use love as medicine.